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I Don’t Know; India Said

So, Rocky reached out to me and asked me to write a post for her blog (which is bomb, btw) and I have been trying to figure out what to write all freaking week. I’ve been typing and retyping potential posts over and over until I gave up and yelled: “I DON’T KNOW!”  I thought about that phrase and realized it’s relevant to just about everything else in my life.

I just don’t know.

I don’t know what I’m going to do after graduation.

I don’t know who I’ll be in the next five years.

I.

Don’t.

Know.

I’m almost certain that I am not the only one who feels this way. For a while, I felt that this was unacceptable. With the pressure of making my family proud, I thought I needed to have it all planned out and ready to put into action. I thought that if it doesn’t come as quickly as it does for others, I didn’t work hard enough… which isn’t true.

The way our generation works today is so weird. You have people our age making thousands off of creating YouTube video’s, Kids becoming rich off of being disrespectful, Asahd produced his first album at 8 months for Christ sake!! The way people move and become successful now has me wondering “what the heck am I doing wrong?”

I feel like I’m looking around me and everyone is speeding in the fast lane, while I’m stuck in the slow lane barely hitting 10 mph. It’s extremely discouraging to see everyone else reach their dreams before I do, but as I continue to work on myself, I do eventually reach my goals.

I came to the realization that “Every flower blooms at its own pace.” Just because I don’t reach my successes at a young age, doesn’t mean it will never happen. The one thing I have learned in college is to be patient. We all have our own path to follow.

So, if you’re going through the same thing… it’s okay!

It’s okay to be unsure of yourself right now.

It’s okay to test the waters until you get it just right.

Your time will come.